Darkness to Light: Poem of a Healing Journey

22/02/2021

Breath holding. Heart pounding. Anxious for nothing. Body on alert. Mind goes to scary places. Hyper vigilant for nothing. Car accident. Arrested. Shamed. Waiting for something to happen. But nothing ever does. I don’t know who I am. So many limiting beliefs. No where to turn. Always in the past. Missing the present moment. Nothing…

Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) correlated to high blood pressure during pregnancy?

22/02/2021

High blood pressure. In your third trimester of pregnancy you do not want to hear these three words, especially if you are planning to have a home birth. My blood pressure nearly caused me to have an induction for my first birth and transfer to a hospital birth for my second birth. I wish I…

Playful Movement

12/02/2021

Remember when you were a kid running around for hours and hours, jumping up on every little thing you could, rolling around on the ground wrestling and doing all kinds of crazy stuff with your body? Now, as an adult, you begrudgingly go to the gym to do your cardio or lift weights and you…

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Dear Vodka,

11/02/2021

Dear Vodka, Why her? Why did you have to take her from me? I know full well you will never give me an answer. These are the questions I have to live with because of your trickery. You tricked her in to believing you could solve her problems. You promised to help numb her self-doubt…

Joy in Movement

08/02/2021

Typical Story This story may sound familiar to you. You begrudgingly make it to the gym. Don’t know what you are going to be working on you so you fumble through a few exercises. The self-conscious thoughts hit you as you do weights in the mirror and you barely break a sweat before it’s time…

My Motivation for Giving Birth the “Right” Way

06/02/2021

My Inauthentic Motivation Fear of birth hit me within minutes of seeing the lines on my pregnancy test.  My mom, friends and society had me believe that birth was the worst and most painful thing I would ever do. As someone who loves challenges, my motivation was fueled to change my experience of birth. I…

Valuing Rest Postpartum

05/02/2021

I get you and I see you. I see you, to the mama who does not want to rest postpartum and hate the fact that you’re supposed to lay in bed, not go downstairs, not cook, not clean, not go anywhere for weeks. I see you. It is so hard to give yourself the permission…

Trust in Birth

05/02/2021

Our culture portrays birth as this awfully painful event to get through just to get your baby out in to the world. It’s just something to endure or to numb. Well, I believe that childbirth is transformative if you trust in birth. I had two amazingly transformative births, each time opening me up to so…

ACoA Community Impact

26/01/2021

Why Me? Who am I to bring together a new family in the ACoA community? I have asked myself this many times because I am still fresh in my journey of healing. I just came out of my denial that alcoholism has had an impact on me a year and a half ago. Yet, I…

Create Harmony

25/01/2021

Like most people would agree, 2020 has been quite a year. I was doing so well following my blog post schedule every other Sunday until COVID hit. Then I lost inspiration to create posts for, well, almost six months. The move cross country was a hiccup, but the true reason lies behind feeling a sense…